This is it.

     Since I was little, I always looked at older kids and thought they were so cool.  I imagined that I would look old and interesting like they did.  As I grew up, there were always people older and cooler.  Well, now that I am eighteen, I don't feel as cool as the 'older kids' looked.  They were so spry and smooth.  They looked mature and fearless. 

      As I look at myself in the mirror, I don't feel mature, nor smooth.  I feel clumsy, young, innocent, and casual.  I feel like a little baby, a child, still growing.  I feel like I should be going back to high school.  But no, I and going to college tomorrow.  And I am terrified.  I am so excited, but I am still terrified.

     Now I am taking the plunge.  Jumping off the cliff.  Diving into the unknown.  I have no idea what will be happening in my life in the next week, or even the next two days.  I know I won't be seeing my family like I see the everyday.  It is rough to hear them talk about the weeks ahead where I will be absent, and their lives will go on.

     This is it.  I am so, so scared.  I am so, so ready.