Tuesday, March 22, 2011
All's Well That Ends Well
I think...I think that everything is going to be okay. And that is all I have to say. Bonus points for rhyming?
Monday, March 21, 2011
Missing You
Now that my brain is about to explode from the dramatics and foolish nonsense I always somehow dabble in, I thought Why not blog? So here I sit on my bed, a frigid breeze lazily sweeping in from my window and all the lights off while I listen to the Marie Antoinette soundtrack. It brings back memories of simpler times and I miss them. I miss laughing loudly over silly things. I miss making jokes. I miss smiling. I miss the content I once felt. I miss the peace.
But there is not sense in wishing and dreaming. A dream is a wish the heart makes and unfortunately my heart has been broken for a time. I know, I am a drama queen, but I have to let it out somehow and what better and more harmless way then channel it through blogging?
Region drama is Thursday. In three days. I don't exactly feel prepared but I don't want to go on to state so I guess that isn't a bad thing. I just am nervous to spend the entire day by myself (?) reciting a monologue I completely believe in, but have a hard time showing emotionally. It's not that I don't feel emotional over it. I do, especially as of late. But I can't seem to show it with my eyes. Oh yeah, that is because I keep my eyes down the entire time. Hmm...I wonder who enforced that.
I hope tomorrow is better. I am always nervous and anxious and my heart is always pounding but I don't know how to fix this. I have made a big mess when I should have stayed out of it. I only have myself to blame.
But there is not sense in wishing and dreaming. A dream is a wish the heart makes and unfortunately my heart has been broken for a time. I know, I am a drama queen, but I have to let it out somehow and what better and more harmless way then channel it through blogging?
Region drama is Thursday. In three days. I don't exactly feel prepared but I don't want to go on to state so I guess that isn't a bad thing. I just am nervous to spend the entire day by myself (?) reciting a monologue I completely believe in, but have a hard time showing emotionally. It's not that I don't feel emotional over it. I do, especially as of late. But I can't seem to show it with my eyes. Oh yeah, that is because I keep my eyes down the entire time. Hmm...I wonder who enforced that.
I hope tomorrow is better. I am always nervous and anxious and my heart is always pounding but I don't know how to fix this. I have made a big mess when I should have stayed out of it. I only have myself to blame.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
One of those days...
Today was one of those days that just didn't go so hot. At the begining of the day, all was well and decent. Then some less than admirable events occured and it went somewhat downhill from there.
And then there is the fact that my heart weeps daily because I still haven't been asked to the stupid high school dance known as THE PROM...but whatever. Ya know, no big deal. Why should I care? It's just my last year and I will be fleeing to college in just 5 months but hey, it's fine.
So my heart weepeth and I sit in bed and blog with the window open because even though it is 39 degrees outside, my soul is the same temperature; I feel no cold.
Okay, that was dramatic and not at all true. I am not that upset...yet. But when the sorrow comes, I will sure share it.
And then there is the fact that my heart weeps daily because I still haven't been asked to the stupid high school dance known as THE PROM...but whatever. Ya know, no big deal. Why should I care? It's just my last year and I will be fleeing to college in just 5 months but hey, it's fine.
So my heart weepeth and I sit in bed and blog with the window open because even though it is 39 degrees outside, my soul is the same temperature; I feel no cold.
Okay, that was dramatic and not at all true. I am not that upset...yet. But when the sorrow comes, I will sure share it.
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